It was a summer Sunday morning and I remember the very warm feeling inspired not just from the early rising of the sun that warmed up my cheeks. I was blushing happy because my best friend (more like sister really) was going to be taking the sermon that day. There were many of them, brothers and sisters alike, young people like me, bonded by a common burning desire for the things of God. I was just happy to see them all that beautiful Sunday morning; every one lit with a keenness of what another message led by one of us would be like. This happened once a month at Restoration House, where one or two of the teenagers or youth under 25, would take the message at a Sunday Service. We all looked forward to those services – it was usually a blend of a surprising depth with a burst of youthfulness just splurging all over the room. It was definitely not one to miss.
I made sure I was at a good seating position where I would not miss a thing. In spite of how close I was (and still am) to my sister, she hadn’t shared a thing to me about what she would speak on. And we both understood these matters are long ways of intimacy beyond human relationships. Oh but I did know one thing – she was there loaded!
Sharing from Galatians 1 she dished out some thoughts that I had never really pondered on for the 1 or 2 times I might have gone through the chapter. Boy, did she make Paul look like a ‘gee’. This apostle was sharing his heart in the chapter of how he’d been called by God and he was so certain about it, he did not need the affirmations of even the ones that were before him to carry out the visions and ministry that God had given him.
“I did not receive it from man, nor was I taught it; …I did not go up to Jerusalem to see those who were apostles before I was…” (Galatians 1:12)
she read the verse with a tone of voice that must have carried the same character that Paul would have had if he was right there standing before us. Between the loud “hmmmmm” that was characteristic of one of the older ladies in church that made everyone giggle, and the harmonization that those words made with my spirit that day, there must have been something resounding that has made that message stick with me over 8 years now.
Living for an audience of one is a meditation of my heart that I have always experienced a realignment with. It’s so easy to be caught up in the ‘wave’ of trying to please people around you but each time I am reminded of the audacity of Paul’s words,
“…am I now trying to please people? If I were still trying to please people, I would not be a servant of Christ”. (Galatians 1:10)
There was an inner consciousness that consumed his vision so much so that nothing else mattered. There’s one who sees the heart, beyond the outward show that may be put up….and to be more intentional about our heart towards him than about what people think, people, that right there, is to be a real ‘gee’.
I have more to share on this, analogy-wise but I’d it leave to the next post.
Please kindly share your thoughts, comments or questions.