Romans 5:8 But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.
I grew up in a house of prayer. A family who puts God first in everything. We were at church almost everyday and prayed together as a family every morning and night but I never quite understood why.
To me it was like, you’ve got to do all this so you have a successful and fulfilled life. It became like a tradition that I carried on to middle school.
Not to say that I didn’t answer the prayer of salvation a few times. I did. Even many times than I can remember. Beginning from elementary school all the way to middle school. So I kept following the rules but I always felt short. It felt totally impossible. Like trying to float on water strapped with 100kg of sand.
It got to the point where I literally had to think, ‘have I lied today?’ How many people did I lie to?’ I was too focused on trying to fix me. That’s an impossible task I tell you.
I got angry at God a few times for not meeting my request. The funniest was when I decided that I didn’t care about God since he didn’t care about me. So I lived life.
Actually, scratch that. I thought I was living life with no rules…
…and no one to account to (that was the deal breaker for me). I hated being told what to do and how to act and i became rebellious. Guess what? I wasn’t satisfied! Life became meaningless. I was a happy but never felt Joy or Peace.
I totally believe in divine appointment. You know being at a certain place at a certain time because that was what changed everything for me. It started from having a guest speaker talk about Jesus in a light that I never understood before. He spoke about the LOVE of Jesus and how much He gave for us even before we ever existed. He spoke about GRACE.
Not like I’ve never heard those teachings before but there was something different this time. It was like all my life had been
leading to that point. Something happened in my spirit, I was brought to my knees and everything changed.
I rededicated my life to Jesus.
I no longer did the things I did to receive good things from God but because I LOVE Him so much. I am still learning to love. I got to understand that when I love God, I can love myself and then others. This is His commandment. To love and be loved.
God’s word came alive to me. I experienced the supernatural.
An experience I like to share:
While in High school, I woke up in the middle of the night and couldn’t go back to sleep. That was weird cause it never happened to me. I felt really weird too, like sad and I started crying. Then I asked God, what is happening? Why am I awake? Then he said, Pray. I asked, about what? He said, pray for your mother. Pray that she wouldn’t die. I didn’t need any motivation. I started to pray and eventually went back to sleep. I felt peace. I later asked my mom if anything had happened that night and she said she had been under an attack that she couldn’t pray or do anything.
That’s amazing. A God that defends us. He raises up soldiers to stand in the gap for us.
I wouldn’t say there haven’t been challenges or difficulties but one thing I know. I would do it all over again, in a heartbeat.
God needs nothing from us, He wants us to LOVE and be LOVED.
For Muslims seeking the truth I recommend that you read the book ‘Seeking Allah, finding Jesus’ by Nabeel Qureshi
For atheists or Christians looking to understand biblical teachings I recommend ‘Mere Christianity’ by CS Lewis.
Life-story by: Grace Ayanlowo
Today’s post was owned and I just let it flow. I trust this has got you thinking. Looking forward to sharing tomorrow’s story. ….And oh! Tomorrow is the birthday y’all. I’d be doing two posts tomorrow: Two more features! … Stay tuned!